It has been a while

Hello Dear Friends,

First I want to thank you for your kind words, they have helped a lot. These last couple of months have really sucked, but they will get better as all things do. But still sometimes I want to cry and other times I want to get really mad. Not at anybody just at the whole damn thing. Ben keeps telling me that anger is not good for you, well neither is keeping it in and pretending you aren't mad. But of course he just lectures me and then he realizes he is lecturing me and apologizes. The fact that he was in the hospital sucked, the fact that we missed our entire summer really sucks. By the way Alysha, Happy Birthday, sorry I missed it, but I know it is on the 9th and you like me turned a whopping 28 years old. You know what really sucks is that he is not him anymore and I have decided if this is good or not. I miss the guy that teased me all the time, now if he does it seems forced. I miss the witty comebacks and how he could think of anything. The only thing that did not suck was that I felt like me again, and I have not felt like that for a really long time. People at my work are wondering what happened to me, "well I am me again, just a little more willing to stand up for myself." Oh and I got to get to know my brother-in-law and his boyfriend. They are so great, we went and saw Mama Mia twice and I loved it both times.

On a different note I am back in school for the semester. I am glad, but I am really tired. My MS doesn't do well when I am stressed but I have an appointment with a specialist on the first. We will see what he says, I am hoping he says something like, "Wow those doctors you have seen before me don't know what the hell they are talking about, you don't have MS." Hey it is wishful thinking I know but at least I am being wishful. Anyways back to talking about school, I am taking a Geology class and as much as I hate science it is fairly interesting for rocks and magma. I am taking a family finance class and learning how to balance my check book and do my taxes. Now I am thinking this might be good because I am tired of dealing with boring accountants who do nothing but crunch numbers all day and talk about debits. Seriously if they aren't married they need to get that way or at least find a girlfriend. (I know not all accountants are like this, my brother in law is an accountant, and he likes Mama Mia. He is the good kind of accountant). I am taking a young adult literature class, and this I like because we get to read and talk about all sorts of cool books. I read White Fang, which I never thought I would do that and I wanted to hop in to the story and beat all the dirty bastard who were mean to him. I also read the Chocolate War, which I really did enjoy and got in to a few discussions with classmates how high schoolers do bad things (not all of course). I got a lot of "well my kids would never do that nor would their friends or any other kids that age." Hello, have you heard of Columbine, they were high school kids and once you step out of sheltered little Utah you will find this whole big crazy wonderful world. Sorry now I am just venting, Utah is a good state. The last class I am taking is an Italian Renaissance class, oh yeah baby it is history in its best form. We just studied the black plague, which wasn't actually called the black plague. It should be called "A freaking lot of people died because they weren't immune to the crap that mice and fleas carry." or the "Damn, I should not have let that guy breathe on me plague." It is all very interesting and very sad, but good things did come from it. It marked the end of serfdom in Europe and a lot of nobles and lords lost their power because they lost the workers of their lands and the impoverished people gained lands from landowners infected with the plague. Oh it is good stuff.

Anyways I best get going, Ben should be here any minute to pick me up and I have to go home to cook dinner and do homework. Love ya all and by the way I am glad you stop by Eve, it is great to hear from you.